It has been a tough couple of weeks since I finished the 30 days of Chemo/Radiation therapy. I now have a one month break with no therapy to give my body a chance to recover. I thought that this would be an easy time, but in reality I'm finding it very hard to remain positive because I find myself in a kind of limbo. When I was working through the radiation I guess I had a clear goal and a daily routine that kept me going. Now I find that I am worrying too much about the future, about the medical expenses and every little thing. It's getting a bit out of control and even though I know it is irrational, I can't stop doing it. I have even been waking at two or three in the morning and have to read a book to get back to sleep. The shrink thinks it is a normal response under the circumstances and put me on the higher dose of anti-depressant earlier this week. I am slowly calming down but it will still take some time to return to normal. It 's another hurdle to get over so I'll just have to hang in there and sweat it out I suppose. I wonder if anyone else has experienced this after Radiation therapy?Thursday, September 10, 2009
Over the Radiation Hurdle and the next one looms large ahead
It has been a tough couple of weeks since I finished the 30 days of Chemo/Radiation therapy. I now have a one month break with no therapy to give my body a chance to recover. I thought that this would be an easy time, but in reality I'm finding it very hard to remain positive because I find myself in a kind of limbo. When I was working through the radiation I guess I had a clear goal and a daily routine that kept me going. Now I find that I am worrying too much about the future, about the medical expenses and every little thing. It's getting a bit out of control and even though I know it is irrational, I can't stop doing it. I have even been waking at two or three in the morning and have to read a book to get back to sleep. The shrink thinks it is a normal response under the circumstances and put me on the higher dose of anti-depressant earlier this week. I am slowly calming down but it will still take some time to return to normal. It 's another hurdle to get over so I'll just have to hang in there and sweat it out I suppose. I wonder if anyone else has experienced this after Radiation therapy?
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ReplyDeleteMy son went through radiation therapy two years ago and did experience depression after it was finished. He told me that while he was going to therapy he had a purpose and when it was finished he did not know what to do with himself. That feeling did pass, so I do believe what you are experiencing is a very normal reaction, my son said it was like he had a job to go to every day and then it was over.....
Hope your recovery from your treatments goes as well as it can. As hard as it can be, try to stay + I know personally I hate hearing it when people say that...but it does help!
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Hi Laurie Jenny here. Just back from the big climbing trip in the States and hopped straight onto your blog. Glad your treatment went well and I hope the anti-depressants kick in and do their job. Thought about you over there - Yosemite was awesome. Look forward to boring you about it all : )
ReplyDeleteHi, just wanted to say I hope you are recovering from the RT well. It takes a while as I know from first hand experience, see tinyurl.com/aboutewan for my embrionic blog.
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